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why, yes I really don't sleep at night. it's 4:46 am over here and I just stopped playing Risen because my CPU overheated. I'd really move my tower some place ELSE - i.e. some place that isn't next to my radiator but alas there's NO SPACE in my crammed room. but I thought I'd put this annoying malfunction to good use and write a long overdue entry instead. *insert cheerful applause here*

Being a Stargate SG-1 and Stargate Atlantis fangirl I of course watched the first episodes of SGU. And dear Zeus it DOES suck, doesn't it? There is one (ONE!) character I can enjoy if I try really hard to find that little caring part of my heart to open up just a bit - it's - you might have guessed - Eli. Yeah of course he annoys me but if I had to chose a character...

Reading the forums over at televisionwithoutpity did soothe my bleeding heart... I really, really wished that I would be able to like the show without having to ignore sexist crap (well OK, it's not BLATANT sexism, but that shower-scene HOW LONG CAN ONE TAKE A SHOWER?! it lastet more than the half episode, or so it seemed... and what about the shots of Seargant Boobtastic's breasts and her perky little erect nipples showing through otherwise decent clothing. If you know me, you know that I'm a friend of boobs and porn and all those things that spice your life but it's so completely OUT OF CONTEXT and so UNNECESSARY) I mean what the HELL happened to smart and intelligent women who are sexy without having to show up naked or having to flaunt their nipples in close-up? Women like, you know, Carter for example...

And I won't even start on Lt. Horny McCathocrite...............

Oh I have not yet mentioned that the "plot" is complete crap and so -oh- so many things do not make sense (exempli gratia: why the heck don't they use the long-range-communication-stone-thingies to actually get someone USEFULL over to figure out the ship's controls, translation problems, you name it.... gah!)


Will I watch it nevertheless? Yes, at least for some time... There's still this small demon of hope whispering to me that it could get better...

and find it the very next day again in a completely different context by pure and spooky coincidence" day

"syzygy" - yesterday I watched an X-Files episode bearing that title. today I find it in the comments to a linguaphiles post. I don't know why but everytime this happens to me. it creeps me out a little. somehow it feels like a déjà vu only that it's, you know REAL.

does that happen to you to? and how do you feel about it?

random stuff, yet again XD

right now downloading 1st episode of Dollhouse the new and hopefully sparkly awesome shiny TV series by Joss Whedon <3 I'm damn curious!!

also! I finally started watching Bleach again. right now I'm watching ep 113! (ok, I admit it I skipped those damn BOUNTO-fillers)

what else? research for my college paper is eating me up - which always drives me to excessive anime-watching so my head won't explode from all that literary and scientific BLATHERING texts of highly intellectual merit. (have been cleaning my room for two days now, so there is not much left to occupy me with to avoid studying/writing.)

ya see...... I got nothing interesting to say, but I felt like updating XD ....sorry....

oh and dicingalice  I PHYSICALLY ITCH for a good ol' pen&paper RPG session! something needs to be done!

which reminds me - if you love H.P. Lovecraft - GO READ The Bone Key by Sarah Monettetruepenny! my copy arrived on Feb. 10th and I read it in one go. it's awesome and I wish there was more! and because I'm lazy I just copy the review I wrote over at anobii.com*:

"If you like Lovecraft you most probably will love this collection of interconnected stories by Sarah Monette. They are odd and enchanting.
The narrator is a museum archivist. He is a withdrawn bibliophile who tends to attract mysterious beings between life and death. Probably because he holds too much theoretical knowledge about necromancy. (And considering one particular story - it's not only theoretical...)
And I have too add that there is a story about an incubus which is particularly stirring.
I highly recommend this collection, though I'm usually not into short stories. "


* anobii.com is btw AWESOME. For those who know me in rl they might also know that I'm not only obsessed with reading and buying books but also with cataloging them. Since 2000 I've got list about when I started reading which book, when I finished it and now even where and when I bought it. up to now this list was a vulgar .odt file over at anobii.com it's a (not yet complete) collection of awesomeness. TRY IT OUT!

note to self: despite the fact that cellphones do exist and to a certain extent are really useful - remember the landline for zeus' sake!

communication isn't utterly impossible. if you try the right means...

vielleicht habe ich aber einfach nur zu wenig zeit zu spielen. und spiele immer nur halb. so wie ich alles immer nur halb mache. und weil ich so viel mache (man denke nur daran, dass ich gerade dabei bin 3 Fächer zu studieren und mich mit 3 Sprachen intensiv  und mit zweien peripher beschäftige und außerdem noch meine ich müsse nebenher ein wandelndes Philosophielexikon werden... ganz abgesehen davon, dass ich still und heimlich an 5 völlig unterschiedlichen Texten arbeite...) kommt alles zu kurz. ALAS. es würde mir schon helfen zu erkennen, dass ich nicht zu wenig sondern zu viel mache. woran es vor allem mangelt ist erkenntnis. was auch immer es sei. dann könnte ich nämlich verstehen und danach handeln. hm. das hat jetzt fast schon geholfen. man soll sich ja auch nicht zu ernst nehmen (ich wenn das vermutlich wieder mein omipräsenter verdränger ist und ich mir vielleicht erst über ein paar dinge klar werden sollte, bevor ich sie im vergessen einsperre...) lalala...


Today I got my hair cut. By the most wonderful emrebekka . Thank you! :D

M. has passed her "Latinum". She called me right after her exam and told me she got a "2" yay! I'm so proud. And still I can't imagine wanting to be a teacher. still I aim for staying at university and working there... or maybe... I don't know. but I really want to tutor someone again. (LET ME TUTOR YOU dicingalice IT WILL BE SO MUCH FUN!!! WIRKLICH!)
It was really great to see her learning so much in so little time. and boy did she study. I couldn't have done that. I'm so glad that I had Latin in school for 6 years. I don't envy all those people who have to learn Latin for their majors.... then again I cannot imagine majoring in say German or any Roman Language or Philosophy etc. without having at least done the "Latinum". I wonder if there's something similar like this in other countries. I know it's about the same in Germany. But as for the rest...? - care to tell me?*

hum. so. as for the party on Thursday: tomorrow IKEA. then on Wednesday buying drinks and fruits and barbecueing stuff. Thursday will be filled with decorations. I hope we'll find piraty fun stuff to put all over the place. and as usual I feel like I'm forgetting something......

gah... such a strange thing to feel chatty and having nothing to talk about... and my English is lacking stile and correctness. it's time to read some English literature again. I feel myself falling out of this language. Aber dafür ist mein Deutsch zur Zeit äußerst zuverlässig... Immerhin, immerhin.

tired now.


*EDIT: wikipedia.de tells me that the "Latinum" is nowadays only required in Germany and Switzerland, they don't say a thing about Austria, well I know it's the same here in Austria. Other European countries have gotten rid of the "Latinum" and "some" (the article doesn't state which) are thinking about "reintroducing" it. It seems that there are many pro and contra discussions going on. amazingly enough not even for Romanstic studies knowledge of Latin is required in other European countries... though it's "recommended as helpful" ita vero! ... huh. of course it's helpful. I'm happy that we seem to be among the last countries that appreciate the value of Latin. though it sounds a liiiiittle conservative... but IT'S LATIN for the gods' sake! it needs to be well conserved....

gah! wenn ich mich doch only für eine sprache deciden könnt! ich will nicht ständig von einer in die andere hüpfen. wah. wah. wah. geht ma des am oasch. It's just sometimes it's easier to write in english, cause it's more fun to write and has more possibilites. man kann mit dem englischen besser spielen, german though it's such a static language, nevertheless umso schöner, wenn sich jemand meisterlich ihrer bedient.

but I can't neither. and lemme tell ya a secret - es geht ma am oasch.

ansonsten. war nicht in Prag, dafür im Burgenland. war auch schön. Prag kommt ein anderes mal dran, wenn nicht gerde halb europa auch dort is. jaja.

English/Deutsch?

oder einfach weitermachen wie bisher? wenn's mich nicht so nerven würd. vielleicht sollt ich mir einfach ein zweites lj anlegen?

but as I know myself, I'll just stick with the routine - that is: be fickle and kiss both languages. yes, that's the way I proceed with anything in my life. why change that habit on behalf of lj-language. like both? - take both. yes, yes. that suits me just fine. 

how I do love holiday! instead of working my ass off with university-stuff. I watch TV-shows online and play Guild Wars the whole night long. Can it get any better? ('cept maybe for getting a real life...) but I will have that too! I'm awesome like that ^^ next week - still holidayweek YAY! - I'll first go to Upper Austria visiting dear friends and family have a "date" with the lovely cat whom I haven't seen in AGES it seems. next I'll go to Salzburg visiting my bf. we'll be wandering a bit if the weather gods can spare some grace. And finally we'll make a trip to Munich.

see I can be a geek and still socializing - all in one person.

so recently I've been watching Buffy the 1st season for the 1st time. I'm one of those kid's who's parents didn't have cable TV so I missed all the REALLY important stuff ;) now 23rd years old I finally get to see the famous Slayer. better late than never I say. but I've been the one who introduced her friends to Firelfy. that does make up a bit for the former lack...

the Naruto special (51-52) was just plain awesome (oh my Sasuke you have some issues, you know) and while watching it I had the epiphany that I'm sure most anime geeks have: NARUTO is actually the male version of SAILORMOON! y'know with him a bit not so much in the light of the bright intelligence but the much more loveable because he's such a nice guy who cares about others. And he's blond and has blue eyes... that's maybe not so significant because of... anime-colouring-schemes-stereotypyness.

aww. Naruto and Sasuke. I'm so curious what the next opening will be like! I guess it doesn't get any better than what we had ("you are my friend.... you are my dream....)

on another note: I am so going into tabletop RPGing again. I missed it like SO FUCKING MUCH. Now I'll be doing it again. I've ordered the Stormbringer 5th Edition rulebook and I have 3 people who are willing to let me be the master of their gaming. it will be so much FUN ^_____^ ... ahem... and I will scare them with Call of Chtulhu yet to be decided if I go for the classical 1920 or maybe I'll do CoC Dark Ages or 1890 or in the so-called NOW. but I guess it's best to start with the 1920 before I geek them out with CAThulhu (where you're facing the horrors of the Great Old Ones playing cute furrbally cats) - yes, must remember not to scare them with the true amount of my geekiness. must hide it, till they are hooked too. do not scare the noobs away!

and for my own pleasure I have to make my own great master Alejandro to play again in "theroom" it is love. I miss the smell of it. and it's in my hometown. it has to be one of the few good things about my home town. If you don't count people living there it IS the only good thing there. People aren't things anyway.

And to achieve these goals of much and more rpging-fun I have bought me the prettiest dice EVER. I'll post pictures later. they're that lovely. I still love my old dice, who [dice aren't people] which will stay here as part of my crappy lj-layout. yes, I DID find them they are not lost!!!

I'm so looking forward to our first game. but there is A LOT of preparing to do. better make a list, huh?

- finding a way of arranging my room so that we can get started (all must have it comfortable and good access to a table-like device for dicing, writing and general stuff, I have to have access to my laptop for the music and I have to have a place to keep my top secret notes.
- find good/matching background music (maybe I'll be able to get some form alejandro)
- be sure I have the plot, NPCs and grounds of the first adventure all in mind so that I will make a good impression with my mastering on my new group.
- know all the rules by heart.
- make minion sheets. you always get stressed out without them. monster-sheets they are your friends!
- know background, history and OMG worldbuilding! - this is still gonna be the hard part. it's quite a bit.
- somewhen in between read the actual novel by Michael Moorcock.

*sigh* I'm happy. yes, I'm a happy girl right now. it's the holiday. I always fall back to childlike behaviour in the holiday

---off to play Guild Wars---

[edit: the spell-check tells me that Cathulhu needs to be fixed into "Catholic"...]

today Jehovah's Witnesses payed me a visist (and all the others living in my student hostel). funny because we're an evangelic (NOT evangelical) student's hostel... with quite a few students of theology. so I guess they might not have made any converts *snort* still they seemed happy to find people to talk to who actually KNOW the Bibel and talk about believe and theological theory regularly. must be quite different from the usual atheistic masses here in Vienna... though of course the majority of us are completely random students that just happen to live here and have nothing to do with religion whatsoever. still you get into discussions regularly ans somehow most just know what it's about at least superficially.


seconds before they were at my door. my bf who lives two doors farther called me and warned me that they would come a-knocking at my door too. I had time to consider posting my lovely "evertime you see a rainbow god is having gay sex" poster on my door, but alas when I wanted to check if there would be time to do so... I opend my door and they were already standing in front of it. pity. but they were nice and friendly and didn't recite too many biblical verses. they just read one to me. which was ok. I knew it anyways. (YES, I do know my Bible)

I declined with thanks the offer of their brochures regarding the meaning of life and thoughts about death.

and then they went on. I tired to warn Andi (who lives on the same floor) but alas, when he answered the phone they already were there...

yeah, it's that time of the year again...

war die Scheidung meiner Eltern ein erstaunlich geringer bis - ich würd sogar sagen - nicht vorhandener emotionaler-stress.

dann kommt mit der volljärhigkeit der geld-scheiß, um den sich dann nicht mehr mami sondern kind selber kümmert (weils ja noch studiert) und plötzlich wird der geld-scheiß zu einem emotionalen-ober-scheiß upgegradet.

muss das denn sein?