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Oct. 27th, 2007 12:37 amtoday I slept till 1 p.m. then went out to take coffee with r. at say 3:45 p.m. and thought I'd be back somewhat around 6 p.m. so that I could work on my paper. 'cause you know... I have to hand it in on wednesday. I drank 2 cafe latte (thinking that I would need the caffeine, cause I wanted to study at home again) it got 6p.m. and I didn't go home. INSTEAD. and I should have known this. 'cause I am like that. and I should really really know myself... so instead: I we went to a pub with r. & b. ( who is such a cute [and very pretty] little guy but OMG so YOUNG. how can people be so YOUNG?) and had a beer, a cider, another cider, another beer. don't know how much.... and now it's 00:45 a.m. and I didn't do ANYTHING today which suuuuuuuuuuux. BUT it was nice. and I got to see a. again which was really nice too. she's great.
and well. yes. it's strange. so much time has passed. somehow it's still the same and somehow it isn't. and it's good the way it is. though I will miss him. yes I will. 'cause I know good intentions aren't everything... *sigh* well. well. I'm happy and tired and hungry. ............. but then again. today there was some kind of strange distance which I didn't like at all. hm... maybe it can't be helped. maybe this distance was always there and I just didn't notice before? no. it's diffrent. have to think about it. don't like distance, no not at all.
oh and STILL there are many questions and the STORY (LOL) ist still to be told. thought that it wouldn't be that easy. I wonder how much he suspects. I always thought he knows/knew everything because to me it has been so FUCKING OBVIOUS. and everbody else knew it...
was ich heute gelernt habe: ich besitze anscheinend ein ultimativ beeindruckendes kleid. ich habe diese kleid in wels (oö) getragen und menschen aus graz (einen davon habe ich heute kennen gelernt) und leute die zu dem zeitpunkt in wien(?) waren haben davon gehört... das hat mich doch... überrascht. überhaupt: "was, DU warst die mit dem kleid?!!!" ich weiß nicht wer mehr gestaunt hat, ich oder er... das hat mich stark an den einen abend im debakel erinnert... ich zu einem kellner: "hey, du bist neu hier, oder?" kellner: "ja, ich bin der b." ich: ja hallo, ich bin die vera." kellner: "ach DU bist die vera!!" ................................................... was bin ich nur für ein freak? nicht dass es mich stören würd... aber hier zeigt sich so ein gewisser trend. vielleicht werd ich ja doch noch eine legende, wer weiß?
ich erinnere mich doch an mehr.
and well. yes. it's strange. so much time has passed. somehow it's still the same and somehow it isn't. and it's good the way it is. though I will miss him. yes I will. 'cause I know good intentions aren't everything... *sigh* well. well. I'm happy and tired and hungry. ............. but then again. today there was some kind of strange distance which I didn't like at all. hm... maybe it can't be helped. maybe this distance was always there and I just didn't notice before? no. it's diffrent. have to think about it. don't like distance, no not at all.
oh and STILL there are many questions and the STORY (LOL) ist still to be told. thought that it wouldn't be that easy. I wonder how much he suspects. I always thought he knows/knew everything because to me it has been so FUCKING OBVIOUS. and everbody else knew it...
was ich heute gelernt habe: ich besitze anscheinend ein ultimativ beeindruckendes kleid. ich habe diese kleid in wels (oö) getragen und menschen aus graz (einen davon habe ich heute kennen gelernt) und leute die zu dem zeitpunkt in wien(?) waren haben davon gehört... das hat mich doch... überrascht. überhaupt: "was, DU warst die mit dem kleid?!!!" ich weiß nicht wer mehr gestaunt hat, ich oder er... das hat mich stark an den einen abend im debakel erinnert... ich zu einem kellner: "hey, du bist neu hier, oder?" kellner: "ja, ich bin der b." ich: ja hallo, ich bin die vera." kellner: "ach DU bist die vera!!" ................................................... was bin ich nur für ein freak? nicht dass es mich stören würd... aber hier zeigt sich so ein gewisser trend. vielleicht werd ich ja doch noch eine legende, wer weiß?
ich erinnere mich doch an mehr.
