nephthys: (lantis&eagle)
there is no peace that I've felt so far the laughter penetrates my silence as drunken men find flaws in science




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 than just one reason why I love this song.

they say he crashed and burned
I know I'll never learn why any boy should die so young.


the whole story )
nephthys: (dice)
das ist eine Erinnerung. weil ich die Faszination* ja ohnehin nicht erklären kann. es ist nicht nur der interessante und unkonventionelle Vergleich. Das große Bild, die archaische Metapher. auf musikalischer Seite vermutlich auch der Chor und ja die Komposition der Instrumente überhaupt. und weil es mein System nicht verlässt, gebe ich dem Drang nach:



I used to rule the world )

*fascinare: beschreien, be-, verhexen

gah. so viele Metaphern die mich treffen. ingenious. und deswegen, zur Erinnerung.

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and which is better?
nephthys: (waterhouse - psyche)
spiel ich mit dem feuer? spiel ich mit dem feuer?

unsinn.

immerhin. immerhin bin ich ja nicht pandora. neinnein. HAHA weil ich. hab ja nie die hoffnung eingesperrt. zumindest. HAhaha-HA. neinnein. psyche schläft so fest wie ich nach ihrem blick in das kästchen. kein wunder, dass nur ein Gott diesen tiefen schlaf vertreiben kann. götter!

nach wie vor grüßt klytaimnestra. nicht umsonst, nicht umsonst. ich winke.

slipping down the universe

und außerdem: is a boat on a hill still a boat?

nephthys: (tori booklove)
I don't know why I'm thinking so much about this love-issue lately. but I ask and ask myself what it is, that I never stop thinking about the people I once loved. which means: I'm definitely not thinking about them constantly BUT they pop up in my head again and again. and I ask myself questions like: "would I fall in love again?" "I have changed - would some of them love me now more/less than then?" - and on the one hand it's all the same to me, because: it's past. it's gone and nothing's gonna change that and I don't even know if I would WANT to change that... but on the other hand there's that: well, this was THEN and this is NOW and NOW I know so many things more, so many things that I could do better, see better, feel better... ah whatever. it's just... I believe I could have given people an even more pleasant time if I'd known THEN what I know today. - that sound stupid? - well, it IS stupid, somehow.

and somehow - does it matter?



and I still talk to them in my thougths. explaining. confessing. anything. still talking.

"There once was a time I was sure of the bond
When my hands and my tongue and my thoughts were enough
We are the same but our lives move along
And the third one between replaces what once was love"
--- Between, Vienna Teng ---
nephthys: (waterhouse - lady of shalott)

 

I'm gonna translate this. It's quite tricky though. 
I'm going to give literal and poetic translation a try...

François Villon: Eine kleine Liebesballade, gedichtet für Jeanne C. de Quée - Nachdichtung von Paul Zech


Im Sommer war das Gras so tief,
daß jeder Wind daran vorüberlief.
Ich habe da dein Blut gespürt
und wie es heiß zu mir herüberrann.
Du hast nur meine Stirn berührt,
da schmolz er auch schon hin, der harte Mann,
weil's solche Liebe nicht tagtäglich gibt ...
Ich hab mich in dein rotes Haar verliebt.
Im Feld den ganzen Sommer war
der rote Mond so rot nicht wie dein Haar.
Jetzt wird es abgemäht, das Gras,
die bunten Blumen welken auch dahin.
Und wenn der rote Mond so blass
geworden ist, dann hat es keinen Sinn,
daß es noch weiße Wolken gibt ...
Ich hab mich in dein rotes Haar verliebt.
Du sagst, daß es bald Kinder gibt,
wenn man sich in dein rotes Haar verliebt,
so rot wie Mohn, so weiß wie Schnee.
Im Herbst, mein Lieb, da kehren viele Kinder ein,
warum soll's auch bei uns nicht sein?
Du bleibst im Winter auch mein rotes Reh
und wenn es hundert schönere gibt ...
Ich habe mich in dein rotes Haar verliebt.

I especially (and those who know me, know that :P) LO-VE the last
line of each verse which says: "I fell in love with your red hair" - and
I'm a sucker for red hair, YES I am. Was, am and will be.
like forever. ok?
so. this piece of poetry touches quite some of the right chords...
nephthys: (watership down)
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And God does not care for your benevolence
Anymore than he cares for the lack of it in others
Nor does he care for you to sit
At windows in judgement of the world He created
While sorrows pile up around you
Ugly, useless and over-inflated"
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ooooh DAVID! - you better not mess with major tom...
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nephthys: (psyche)


I'm so tired of playing,
Playing with this bow and arrow,
Gonna give my heart away,
Leave it to the other girls to play,
for I've been a temptress too long

just,
give me a reason to love you,
give me a reason to be,
a woman
I just wanna be a woman
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man nimmt sich ja zeit...

kein warten


warten wir auf morgen
mein schatz
ein grenzenschall
purrotes einverständnis
was dort auf der straße liegt
soll's dich kümmern
soll's dir ein licht sein
soll's dir den weg weisen
wir brauchen das fenster nicht
nichts zu warten
streu federn in dein blut
schön bist du immer
und immer ohne grund
cheshirecat

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I don't believe I went too far
I said I was willing
she said she knew what my books did not
I thought she knew what's up

Past the mission
behind the prison tower
past the mission
I once knew a hot girl
past the mission
they're closing every hour
past the mission
I smell the roses

She said they all think they know him well
she knew him better
everyone wanted something from him
I did too but I shut my mouth
he just gave me a smile

Hey they found a body
not sure it was his
still they're using his name
and she gave him shelter
and somewhere I know she knows
somewhere I know she knows
some things only she knows...

tori amos - past the mission
nephthys: (psyche)
I knew a boy who would
not share his bike
oh but he let me go sailing
I swore that I
could survive any storm
oh then he let me go

"Can you Launch Rockets from here?"
Boy I've done it for years
right over my head
and when I promised my hand
he promised me back
Snow Cherries from France
all that summer
we traveled the world
never leaving his own back garden
girls I didn't know
just what it could be
oh but he let me go sailing


you question me,
"Can you ride anything?"
Lord do mean like your mood swings
Invaders and Traders with
the best intentions
may convince you to go
"They look like Pirates from here"
Boy I've been one for years
just keeping my head
and when I promised my head
you promised me back
Snow Cherries from France

and then one day he said
"Girl it's been nice,
oh but I have to go sailing"
with cinnamon lips
that did not match his eyes
oh then he let me go
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these tears I've cired I've cired a thousand oceans and if it seems I'm floating in the darkness, well...
I can't believe that I will keep keep you from flying. and I would cry a thousand more if that's what it takes to sail you home sail you home

I'm aware what the rules are. but you know that i will run. you know that I will follow you. over silbury hill through the solar field. you know that I will follow you

and if I find you. will you still remember playing at trains. or does this little blue ball just fade away. over silbury hill through the solar field. you know that I will follow you. I'm aware what the rules are. but you know that i will run. you know that I will follow you.

these tears I've cired I've cired a thousand oceans and if it seems I'm floating in the darkness, well...
I can't believe that I will keep keep you from flying.

so I will cry a thousand more if that's what it takes to sail you home. sail. sail you home.
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If you go away
On this summer day
Then you might as well
Take the sun away
All the birds that flew
In the summer sky
And our love was new
And our hearts were high
When the day was young
And the night was long
And the moon stood still
For the night bird song

If you go away, if you go away, if you go away

But if you stay
I'll make you a day
Like no day has ever been
Or will be again
We'll sail on the sun
We'll ride on the rain
We'll talk to the trees
And worship the wind
And if you go
I'll understand
Leave me just enough love
To hold in my hand

If you go away, if you go away, if you go away

If you go away
As I know you will
You must tell the world
to stop turning
Till you return to me
If you ever do,
Oh what good is love
without loving you?
I can tell you now,
as you turn to go
I'll be dying slowly
Till your next hello

If you go away, if you go away, if you go away,

But if you stay
I'll make you a night
Like no night has ever been
Or will be again
I'll sail on your smile
I'll ride on your touch
I'll talk to your eyes
That I love so much
But if you go
I'll understand
Leave me just enough love
To hold in my hand

If you go away, if you go away, if you go away

If you go away,
as I know you must
There is nothing left
in this world to trust
Just an empty room,
full of empty space
Like the empty look
I see on your face
I'd have been the shadow
of your shadow
If you might have
kept me by your side

If you go away, if you go away, if you go away



auch ich war schon einmal mitteilsamer.
bäh.
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PALOMA NEGRA

Ya me canso de llorar y no amanece
yo no se si maldecirte o por ti rezar,
tengo miedo de buscarte y encontrarte
donde me aseguran mis amigos que te vas.

Hay momentos en que quisiera mejor rajarme
pa'arrancarme ya los clavos de mi penar,
pero mis ojos se mueren sin mirar tus ojos
y mi cariño hoy con locura te vuelve a buscar.

Ya agarraste por tu cuenta la parranda,
paloma negra, paloma negra donde estaras
ya no juegues con mi honra parrandera, si
tus caricias deben ser mias de nadie mas.

Aunque te amo con locura ya no vuelvas,
paloma negra tu eres la causa de mi sufrir,
quiero ser libre, vivir mi vida con quien
yo quiera, Dios dame fuerzas que me
estoy muriendo por irla a buscar.

Ya agarraste por tu cuenta la parranda.


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Tori Amos - Strange

Strange
Thought I knew you well
Thought I had read the sky
Thought I had read a change
in your eyes
so strange
Woke up to a world
that I am not a part
except when I can play
its stranger

After all
what were you really
looking for
and I wonder
when will I learn
Blue isn't red
everybody knows this
and I wonder
when will I learn
when will I learn
guess I was in Deeper than
I thought I was
if I have enough love
for the both of us

"just stay" you say
"we'll build a nest"
so I left my Life
Tried on your friends
Tried on your opinions
So when the Bridges froze
and you did not come home
I put our snowflake under a microscope

After all
what was I really
looking for
and I wonder
when will I learn
Maybe my wish knew better
than I did
and I wonder
when will I learn
when will I learn
guess I was in Deeper than
I thought I was
if I have enough love
for the both of us

so strange
now I'm finally in
the Party has begun
it's not like I can't
feel you still
but strange
what I will leave behind
you call me one more time
but now I must be leaving

***

China

China all the way to New York
I can feel the distance getting close
You're right next to me
But I need an airplane
I can feel the DISTANCE as you breathe
Sometimes I think you want me to touch you
How can I when you build a great WALL around you
In your eyes I saw a future together
You just look away in the distance
China decorates our table
Funny how the CRACKS don't seem to show
Pour the wine dear
You say we'll take a holiday
But we never can agree on where to go
Sometimes I think you want me to touch you
How can I when you build a great WALL around you
In your eyes I saw a future together
You just look away in the distance
China all the way to New York
Maybe you got lost in MEXICO
You're right next to me
I think that you can hear me
Funny how the distance learns to grow
Sometimes I think you want me to touch you
How can I when you build a great WALL around you
I can feel the distance
I can feel the distance
I can feel the distance getting close

**************************************************

Guter Mond

Guter Mond, du gehst so stille
Durch die Abendwolken hin.
bist so ruhig und ich fühle,
dass ich ohne Ruhe bin.
Traurig folgen meine Blicke
deiner stillen, heitren Bahn,
o, wie hart ist das Geschicke,
daß ich dir nicht folgen kann.

Guter Mond, dir will ich's sagen,
Was mein banges Herze kränkt,
Und an wen mit bittren Klagen
Die betrübte Seele denkt!
Guter Mond, du kannst es wissen,
Weil du so verschwiegen bist,
Warum meine Tränen fließen
Und mein Herz so traurig ist.

Nicht in Gold und nicht in Seide
Wirst du dieses Mädchen sehn,
Nur im schlichten weißen Kleide
Pflegt mein Mädchen stets zu gehn.
Nicht vom Adel, nicht vom Stande,
Wen man sonst so hoch verehrt,
Nicht vom eitlen Mode-Tande
Hat mein Mädchen seinen Wert.

Nur ihr Reiz, ihr gutes Herze,
Macht sie liebenswert bei mir,
Gut im Ernste, froh im Scherze,
Jeder Zug ist gut an ihr.
Ausdrucksvoll sind die Gebärden,
Froh und heiter ist ihr Blick,
Kurz, von ihr geliebt zu werden,
Halt ich für das größte Glück.

Mond, du Freund der reinsten Triebe,
Schleich dich in ihr Kämmerlein;
Sag es ihr, daß ich sie liebe
Und daß sie nur ganz allein
Mein Vergnügen, meine Freude,
Meine Lust, mein Alles ist,
Daß ich gerne mit ihr leide,
Wenn ihr Aug' in Tränen fließt.

Daß ich aber schon gebunden,
Und nur leider! zu geschwind
Meine süßen Freiheitsstunden
Schon für mich entschwunden sind;
Und daß ich nicht ohne Sünde
Lieben könne in der Welt.
Lauf und sag's dem guten Kinde,
Ob ihr diese Lieb' gefällt?
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look I'm standing naked before you
don't ou want more than my sex
I can scream as loud as your last one
but I can't claim innocence

oh god could it be the weather
oh god why am I here
if love isn't forever
and it's not the weather
hand me my leather

I could just pretend that you love me
the night would lose all sense of fear
but why do I need you to love me
when you can't hold what I hold dear

I almost ran over an angel
he had a nice big fat cigar
"in a sense" he said "you're alone here
so if you jump you best jump far"

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oh god could it be the weather
oh god why am I here
if love isn't forever
and it's not the weather
hand me my leather
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excuse me but can I be you for a while
my dog won't bite if you sit real still
I got the anti-Christ in the kitchen yellin' at me again
yeah I can hear that

been saved again by the garbage truck
I got something to say you know but nothing comes
yes I know what you think of me you never shut-up
yeah I can hear that

but what if I'm a mermaid in these jeans of his with her name still on it
hey but I don't care
cause sometimes I said sometimes I hear my voice and it's been here
silent all these years


so you found a girl who thinks really deep thoughts
what's so amazing about really deep thoughts
boy you best pray that I bleed real soon
how's that thought for you

my scream got lost in a paper cup
you think there's a heaven where some screams have gone
I got 25 bucks and a cracker do you think it's enough
to get us there

cause what if I'm a mermaid in these jeans of his with her name still on it
hey but I don't care
cause sometimes I said sometimes I hear my voice and it's been here
silent all these years


years go by
will I still be waiting for someone else to understand
years go by
if I'm stripped from my beauty and the orange clouds raining in my head
years go by
will I choke on my tears till finally there is nothing left
one more casualty
you know we're to easy easy easy
well I love the way we communicate
your eyes focus on my funny lip shape

let's hear what you think of me now
but baby don't look up
the sky is falling

your mother shows up in a nasty dress
it's your turn now to stand where I stand
everybody lookin' at you

here take a hold of my hand

yeah I can here them . . .

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